No day but today.

Days don't get much better than high 60's in Upstate NY in the middle of March. It was fortunate that some friends of ours stopped by unexpectedly because it at least got me outside. Gwynn had her friends here to (not) sleep over and I was up, buzzing on little girl energy myself, until about 2 am, which, with the time change, was actually 3. They were up at 7, left around 11. I cleaned up, got some laundry started, and watched a DVD with Gwynn. She drifted off on the couch, and I was close behind, but then, thankfully, Val and Roger and their dog, stopped by. I got outside. I got a zap of sun energy. I spent the rest of the day pretty productively. I will surely be OUT on the couch in an hour or so, but still...no day but today.

The DVD Gwynn and I enjoyed today was Idina Menzel "Barefoot at the Symphony," full of music from Broadway...Wicked, Rent, Chess...standards and "others"...truly an eclectic mix. It was just released, and Tim pre-ordered it for me from Amazon for my birthday. It arrived yesterday. It was really the sweetest gift, as this was a recording, done in Toronto, but from the symphony tour we saw in Buffalo in September. A way to re-visit one of our "epic adventures" that are so much a part of "us."

Today, watching it, I was welling up just as much, if not more, than the night we were at Kleinhann's Music Hall. Her voice, her acting ability, her lyrical interpretation, the songs themselves. It all just moved me, as music always does. And let's face it, on the eve of my baby boy turning 14, and on the wave of very little sleep, well, let's just say, emotion was close to the surface. The kids always laugh, a little uncomfortably, at me when I cry. They are not nasty or chiding in any way, but, obviously, they are wondering what is wrong. To them crying is for the sad times, for the bad times. If they only knew, yet, I am glad that they don't. They have the most beautiful lives. I am so blessed...and let's not candy coat it. It has been hard work these last 14 years, but I think Tim and I have created just what we always wanted. A family.

No day but TODAY!

There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret-- or life is yours to miss.
No other road
No other way
No day but today

There's only yes
Only tonight
We must let go
To know what is right
No other course
No other way
No day but today

I can't control
My destiny
I trust my soul
My only hope
is just to be

There's only now
There's only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way
No day but today